Maddie :D

So, that picture is kinda crap, but it's the best one I had -.- Maddie is one of a kind, which is sad because I wish there were more people like her. She's so nice, so real and so funny. I've only known since the beginning of eighth grade, but I feel like I've known her my whole life, and I know for a fact I won't be able to make it through the rest of my life without her. She's always there for me, always. I know I can depend on her to cheer me up, no matter the situation. And, I hope she knows I would do the same for her. Whenever I need to talk to someone, she's the first person I think of. She puts up with my craziness, over-emotionality, and sometimes bitchiness. She never annoys me (which I must say, is pretty awesome, because EVERYONE has the ability to annoy me). She always listens to my issues, even when she probably doesn't want to. She never judges, and I know I can tell her anything without being ridiculed. She has the ability to make me feel so happy, even when I feel like utter shit. I have so many memories with her, and I'm so excited for the ones to come[: I love you!

Ridiculous.

What I wanna know is why the heck whenever you treat me like crap, insult me, hurt my feelings and make me feel like crap, FOR ABSOLUTELY NO REASON, I have to put up with it? Hmm? Why do I have to keep my mouth shut? Why am I expected to just take it?

How come if I were to say rude things to you, you'd get all mean and pissy? I've never, ever said anything rude to you about the way you dress/look/act/etc. I probably never will, 'CAUSE IT'S RUDE. There's nothing "funny" about being mean, alright? Words hurt, seriously -__-
Yet, you can sit there and make fun of EVERY SINGLE FLIPPING THING I DO, FOR NO REASON OTHER THAN YOU DON'T LIKE IT. Just because you have an opinion, doesn't mean you ALWAYS need to voice it. Yep, your logic makes lots of sense.
Seriously, how would you feel if I made fun of you day after day? How would you feel if you liked the way you looked, and I had to bash it? Probably like crap, huh?
IT'S MY LIFE, LET ME LIVE IT THE WAY I WANT TO WITHOUT BEING CRITICIZED.

Think about it, 'cause I'm sure as hell sick of it. And this wasn't about just one person, it was about everybody. Bye.

One hundred facts♥

1. My name is Alyssa. 2. I'm fifteen years old. 3. I have two real friends- Taylor and Maddie. They are the best♥ 4. I have a younger brother named Nick. 5. I dislike 70% of people. 6. I'm Italian and Irish. 7. I love Massachusetts♥ 8. I want a career in language interpretation in Europe or marinebiology. 9. I lost my grandpa and aunt in the seventh grade and miss them dearly♥ 10. I'm really ashamed of my past. 11. I love writing. 12. I tend to let people get to me more than they should. 13. When I'm mad, I listen to really loud rap. 14. I try to never judge people. You never know what life is like for someone. 15. I've been vegetarian for two years. 16. I am a total spelling and grammar Nazi. 17. I hold most of my anger in, so if I'm mad at you, you'll probably never know. 18. I get weirdly nervous when I go over to other people's houses. 19. I have two cats and a dog♥ 20. I miss fifth grade, a lot. 21. I love a boy who has no idea, and probably doesn't care. 22. I focus on the past too much, and I hate it. 23. I still have a stuffed Barney that I've had since I was three♥ 24. I play piano. 25. I wouldn't be able to make it through the day if it wasn't for my parents, grandma and brother♥ 26. I've always wanted to be on The Real World. 27. I'm extremely paranoid. 28. I try to please people too much. 29. I want to travel to Europe and Asia. 30. I never thought I'd say this, but I miss seventh grade at Paragon. 31. I have twelve piercings. 0g's, multiple ear piercings, my belly button, and my lip. 32. I can't remember the last time I felt truly happy without doing something to make me feel that way, or having someone make me feel that way. 33. I love coffee and green tea. 34. I hate liars. 35. I get annoyed easily. 36. The Beatles, Avenged Sevenfold, A Day To Remember and Led Zeppelin are my favorite bands.♥ 37. I love blogging, and I really shouldn't. 38. I wanna study Criminal Law. 39. I am pumped for this summer, and my sophomore year. 40. I love tubing[: 41. My favorite classes in school are English, French and History. 42. I tend to dislike most people younger than me. Middle-schoolers and people in upper elementary grades, in particular. 43. I'll probably never have children, and if I do it will be after the age of thirty. 44. Everyone tells me I look older than what I really am. 45. I love listening to the same song on repeat over and over until the song is stuck in my head all day. 46. I adore Eminem. 47. I could live off of Subway veggie subs and Arizona Tea♥ 48. I've flown in an airplane at least twenty times. 49. I actually love classical music. 50. I've sang in choir for five years. 51. My favorite seasons are spring and autumn♥ 52. My mom has a tattoo of the Italian flag on her ankle and I want the same one. 53. I sleep whenever I'm stressed out, lonely or sad. 54. I cut and dye my own hair. 55. I love flying in airplanes♥ 56. My current favorite songs are "Fifteen" by NeverShoutNever! and "Drop The World" by Lil Wayne. 57. I wish my mom would let me decorate the room at her house more. It's so bland, haha. 58. I'll always miss parts of July 2010♥ 59. I sometimes fear I'll be alone for the rest of my life. 60. My favorite genres of music are rock, metal, rap, alternative and oldies. 61. My dad is my ultimate hero♥ 62. I hate "book smart" people who have no common sense. 63. My pet peeve is when people drop an f-bomb every thirty seconds. Is it going to kill you not to say "fuck this" and "fuck that"? No. 64. I wish I could go back in time and do eighth grade all over again. 65. I will have Pachelbel's "Canon In D" played at my wedding♥ 66. I'll never forget the first time I heard the song "Let It Be" by The Beatles played. It was at an outdoor concert one night when I was twelve, the guy singing it sucked, but I fell in love with the lyrics♥ 67. I went to Catholic school for six years, and hated it. 68. I miss MySpace. 69. I love thunderstorms♥ 70. I forget almost everything important, but remember tiny, irrelevant things. 71. I hate to admit it, but sometimes the only person who can make things better is my mommy♥ 72. I hate ill-mannered people. Would it hurt to say "please" and "thank you" every now and then? 73. I once ran around in my swimsuit...in the middle of January. 74. I dislike almost all fast-food. 75. I'm named after one of my favorite aunts, my Aunt Maureen♥ 76. I don't like religion much, but I finally do believe in God. 77. I get motion sick bad. Cars that are close to the ground and school busses= bad. 78. I'm really friendly, unless I don't like you. 79. I don't take liars and broken promises well. 80. I can't stand when people say, "People never change". People do change, for the better and worse. 81. I'd love to go back in time and spend a week in the 60's, 70's, 80's and early 90's. 82. I hate being around people I don't know very well. If I don't you, I'm insanely quiet and probably won't talk to you. 83. I've had my heart truly broken once. 84. I'm deathly afraid of squirrels, loneliness, rejection, serial killers and the doctor. 85. I idolized Shirley Temple when I was little. 86. I wanna be in a movie before I die. 87. I love talking to people from other countries. 88. I did ballet for nine years, and miss it dearly. 89. When I say "no" the first time, I mean it. 90. I have high self-esteem one minute, and low self-esteem the next. 91. I love photography and photo editing. 92. I can't stand when people think it's funny to make fun of people with disabilities. 93. My favorite colors are blue, pink and purple. 94. Fall River, Massachusetts= best vacation ever♥ Point blank. Period. 95. Mean jokes + Maddie + Taylor + me + too much time on our hands= best form of fun ever. 96. I actually love school. 97. I hate when people try to make themselves seem intelligent, when they're really not. 98. My greatest dislike is when people bring up mistakes I made a long time ago. 99. I was terrified of starting at Jackson High. 100. I started typing this forever ago and finally posted it today.

Taylor :]

"Life isn't easy, no one ever said it was. But if we are lucky, we can love and be loved."

Taylor Noelle, you are the best. Having known you only since the beginning of eighth grade- I can honestly say that I don't know what I'd do without you. I can tell you everything, and know I won't be judged. You completely accept me the way I am, which is amazing. You are so genuine, so real. You never leave me when times get hard. You support me every single second :] You put up with my moody, annoying, stubborn, crazy personality. You understand me better than anyone else. I never have a dull moment when I'm with you. Ever. We have so many memories, and really -we're just getting started. I will always be there for you and you can always come to me for advice. I want to spend the rest of my life, with you as my friend. I'll cry my eyes out for days if I ever lose you. I love you Taylor, forever and ever[: <3

TODAY.

Well, for starters...today was awesome :] Kinda, haha.
It started off with me waking up on time, getting to the bus on time and then getting to school in a good mood :D After school, I had choir rehearsal, which seemed never-ending. The clinician was driving me insane! Hahah, she was old xP
The school day went by super fast, which was good because I had to stay at school for twelve hours today. >.<"
Bio, English and French were all amazing too.♥
Travis kept smiling at me xD
Then, spaghetti dinner in the cafeteria. That was also amazing :] I got to hang out with Maddie and Taylor :D Then, talked to Cylor for a bit.
Then, the pre-festival concert. I kinda hated it, but atleast it went by fast xP

Ahh, I can't wait for the next few days[:
Love you♥

February.

I love this month♥ I turn fifteen tomorrow :D It's safe to say I'm more than excited[: Spring is FINALLY almost here, too. But then again, almost. Haha. Is it just me or is this year going by oddly fast? Like seriously, eighth grade took forever to pass. Eh, maybe it is just me.

Anyway >.> I wish more people read this, I made a music blog, just because it sounds fun xP http://alyssamaureensmusic.blogspot.com/
Follow it :D
Also, I think I'm going to quit blogging for a while. Not that anyone actually reads this o.o I mean, I used to post things every single day, & even for me- that was just boring to read. Unless you find my issues interesting, haha.
So, I'll just get on here every now & then...or whenever I have access to a computer. But, I do want to write in my music blog a lot. Heh, this was kinda long o.o
Bye!
-Alyssa♥

♥

Grandpa, I miss you. A lot. It's been almost two years & I still think about you all the time. Being seven hundred miles away from you, I didn't always get to see you as much as I'd like. I remember everything. The times you'd come to Michigan in the spring to visit, the summers I spent in Massachusetts, the days you'd get sunburnt on the beach, the mornings I'd wake up & smell coffee, the stories you'd tell me about when you were in different countries. I remember it all. & I miss it. The thing I miss the most about you is your strength though. You lived through the loss of two daughters, two wifes, many friends & you still kept your head held high. You gave me one of the greatest people I have, my father. You've shown me how to never take anything in life for granted. I love you & miss you. I promise I won't let you down, Papa Lyons.♥

Auntie Sheila, let me start off by saying that you are everything I think a person should be. Kind, generous, strong & loving. You knew more about pain & suffering then anyone should ever have to, but you never let it get to you. You survived cancer multiple times & when it came back you still put everyone else before you. Your selflessness is beautiful. One of the things I admired the most about you is that you really, truly cared about others. I remember getting phone calls on my birthday & necklaces, "just because". Even on that sad December day; when you were sick again, you made sure everyone else was happy. You were a great person. I love you, miss you & think of you often.♥